Why can't I just start this year over?

So yeah, amazingly freakingly awesomely sick right now. I felt every form of pain while waiting for my parents to pick me up from volleyball.

but, yeah, I think I'm beginning to catch up with my life that's been running away from me lately. Yeah, there's a lesson here- don't overthink life.

but, yeah, volleyball+school=my life (right now)

soooo bored.

soooo sick

I want to skip MCAS tomorrow, but that's a bad idea.

better get some (early) sleep

byebye

MCAS

MCAS is seriously annoying. I mean, this next week, it seems like, because we don't have homework or anything, we get the week off. WRONG. This week could decide the rest of my life. This week is representing my average high-school carreer with just one sample. What if I have a bad day? That shows to all my the colleges that I'll be applying to that I've had a bad high school carrer. So unfair. I can't believe I am actually studying for it.

Onto a different note
I can't wait for the summer. Alaska is sooo awesome.


now back to studying
byebye

duuude....

I've done some research on the new Ipod and it's looking pretty sweet.

10 things I would like to see on the next Ipod

• a camera

• a wireless internet connection (or if not, at least a wireless connection to the Itunes store so you can buy songs or videos on the go)

• a very large touch screen, which could be flipped to go wide screen for some movies

• TV/radio tuner

• And, to follow up on the previous one, tivo-like capabilities in order to record your tv shows

• built in voice recorder

• windows xp on your ipod (man, that would be sweet)

• adobe photoshop/keyboard/mouse attatchments for your ipod

• A cell phone on your ipod

• And, finally, downloadable games

I bet apple won't do any of this stuff, though. I would be surprised if they even have anything remotely close to what its customers are looking for

pretty cool...

homework now.

yeah, more sane now

Ok, first and foremost FALL OUT BOY IS AWESOME.

Now that we got that out of the way, it's time to update (and I'm not going to ramble on about random things like I did last time)

Soo....The weather is so weird right now. but I want it to snowww...
unfortuanetely, it doesn't look like the pathetic amount it's snowing now is going to accumulate at all.

Ah well, I've decided that I may be dying my hair green on friday for st. patty's. It's amazing how people (such as me before I dyed my hair) can be so judgemental and steriotypical about people with dyed hair. Ah well, it's all good.

Nowthatit'swednesday, the rest of the week shall be a breeze. It's quite funny how I always end up starting and finishing huge projects/papers/studying for tests the night before they are due.

yeah, so now I better at least get started on my homework. (otherwiseknownas torture)

Oh yeah, one more thing, if anyone is wicked good at html and knows how to redirect sites, leave a comment on how to do it please!!!

(wow, this ended up being a bunch of random things. At least I tried to stay on topic)

byebye

(I don't even know why I'm posting)

sooo...posting again.

No idea what to say. Well, so many things to say, but don't know what to write.

Alright, I'll start here. I recently had a discussion on nationalism in my history class, and realized that nationalism is describing the relations between two countries. Nationalism may have solved the problem with division between one country, but it worsened the problem among countries. Now, instead of looking at our neighbor, and seeing a stranger, we look at the Europeans and see strangers. Nationalism has gone too far. How many times do you see an american flag every day? Can we be proud of our country, yet hopeful for other countries? No, since being proud of our country only supports the idea of "our country is first, yours is second". Even if we were to start over and create one "country", then everyone would have such different ideas that they would divide and create different groups of people. So, I have no idea what we should do, but I know that what we have right now is not working out for everyone.

But, yeah. Onto another random topic.

What are we? Think of what we are made of; millions of cells, which are living organisms, that create us, create our mind, and allow us to live on this world. Now think of the world. It is made of billions of people, all playing their part in making the "soul" of our world. Our world is basically like a human. We all have our part in making our world run, just as our body has many parts that help it to run. Our body is made up of nothing but matter, yet it makes the final product of a human soul, just as the whole world adds up to being more than just a bunch of people, it ends up having a soul. Is the world healthy today? Or is it just fighting off another cold?




OK, if you read all of my CRAZY rambling which makes its appearance every once in a while, good for you. well, I've got to go now, and at least try to do some of my homework.

byebye

So, yeah, I'm back. The retreat was "mad crazy awesome". Got to know what it felt like to be in prison, got to have fun, got to meet new people, just overall a good experience.

What I'm pumped for is (the summer, and) next monday.
I've been training for about a month or so by now, and lately have been getting sharp pains in my chest from lifting too much weight, but still, I'm excited for VOLLEYBALL.

Also, (randomness), WHY CANT I LIVE IN NORTHERN ARIZONA??? They're getting sooo much snow, and I REALLY want to ski. I hope we get some more snow.

Soooo, as my hands and mind get tired from typing and thinking, I leave you with this quote...

"Talk sense to a fool and he calls you foolish."

Byebye

OK, first and foremost fall out boy is AWESOME. And, yeah, I don't really have much else to say.

yeah, my life is now (and always) pretty much homework, school, sleep and lack of focus in between. It turns out when I add those three up in a 24 hour day, I overbook my days by about 10 hours. Ah well, me rambling on about homework isn't very exciting.

volleyball is LA BOMBA, and it seems like that is the only exercising that I am doing these days.


Ah welll, I must leave now.
byebye

Yeah, I don't want to study for my chem test.

Hmmm... I think I sense a pattern

OVERLOAD ON HOMEWORK= go to my blog and make a post. Well, at least it seems that way.

So, yeah, nothing (very) new here. Goin' to Pennsylvania to see the cousins over the weekend, and like a 6 hour car trip to get there. I can't wait 'till my 3-year-old cousin sees my blue hair. Twill be funny.

But, in other news, I just discovered the possibility of the potential I have in volleyball. It may be semi-enjoyable if the coach actually PUTS ME IN THIS SEASON!!! But, yeah, I'll probably make JV this year.

and, today, which I'm now stressing out about, my chem forgot about our class. Now, I would normally be happy about this, but she walked in after 3/4 of the period, and told us that we still had the test, even though we didn't review like at all when we were supposed to review all class.

So now I'm here, being a procrastinator only because I have no freakin' idea what I'm gonna do about this test. I'M DEAD

Ah well, I guess I should at least start studying for it.

byebye

English paper sux, homework sux, school sux, life IS AWESOME (and lonely)

yeah, I have a ton of homework, and my addish mind won't let me do any of it. So here goes with my random blabbering...

yeah, I don't want to go back to school tomorrow (and kinda do). School is so annoying, and I don't really see the point of it. I'm perfectly fine sitting here having my brain rot in front of the computer. I'm fine learning on my own.

But, yeah, I was thinking about testing my html skylz with a poll of some sort, but then I realized that wouldnt really work since barely any people actually visit this site, let alone vote.

But, yeah, I'm so freakin' lonely.

I even went to youth group tonight (yeah, not like I'm a very good Christian) and had an odd happening. We had a time when we could say prayers for people who needed help, and I was considering going up and saying for all of the lonely people in the world to get a friend. But then I thought that was too obvious, and I stayed quiet. You see, my family has no idea how lonely I am, so I try to keep it on the "down low". I even know why I'm typing this in a PUBLIC BLOG if not even my family knows. But yeah, hanyways, I sometimes think it is all in my mind how lonely I am. I mean, I might just be doing this subconciously for attention by making people feel bad for me. So, am I really lonely? (I think so)

but yeah, I fear that I do many things (sub)conciously to get attention, and it scares me. But, yeah.


OK, time to cool down and stop being addish (and do hw)

byebye

Ok, so I'm really tired right now, and pretty much all I want to do is go to bed. So, yeah, but skiing was awesome. I partially injured my thumbnail and my back, but it was definetely worth it. It was mad crazy windy (and powdery), and snowy, though.

There is officially 56 hours, 48 minutes left of vacation. I'm pumped for the summer now.

And, yeah, I've recently decided that Fall Out Boy is my new favorite band. Their songs basically describe like MY LIFE,(well, more like that of an average teenager, but yeah) so they have made the top of my list.

So, yeah, that's all I have to say, and I think I'll go to bed now.

goodnight y'all

first post

yeah, so this is my *new* blog. Uhm, I don't think any of my friends know about this, so I am not expecting any comments or anything, but if anyone's reading this, feel free to comment. Yeah, I'm sort of creating this to test my html skill (lol, like I have any). But, yeah first post=awesome. Yeah, goin' skiing wed thurs and friday. Can't wait... skiing is wicked awesome (and wicked dangerous). I hope I don't kill myself. Ah well, Homework is a priority, so byebye...


p.s.... there SHALLL be more