Ok, so this one's just frustrating. I thought it would be a good picture, and everyone told me it was going to be a good picture (including the teacher) when they saw the "contact sheet" (aka, little tiny print) of it. But it's just frustrating, and didn't come out the way I wanted it to. Whatevs.

I'm thinking...not much else to say.

Ah well, goodbye (+goodnight) for now

~Mike

Yet again...

I actually just made a print of this one. It's pretty cool, but barely worth it for the like 45 minutes of labor it took me to get it just right. But the product is pretty cool. If you can't tell what it is, it's a few pennys sitting in snow. It took me like way too long to set this one up, too. I think the pennies are still sitting outside on the table on my deck. Wow.

Wayyy too tired. Goin to the beach tomorra... shall be fun... it'll be really warm, too, which will be awesome.

~Mike

and again...

This one was taken a few months ago (right before christmas)

Wow, my pictures come out horribly when you scan them in. It's soooo annoying.

Well, anyways, just decided to post pics. Way too tired/lazy to write much more. Well, maybe just a little more.

It's quite funny how everyone else in the Sophmore class reacts to the graduating Seniors, vs. how I react. Everyone else is sooo mad at them 'cause they get to gooooo....and like have an extra long summer. I'm just sitting quietly in the corner, chuckling to myself, thinking how terrifying it will be for them once they're graduating seniors. I'll laugh when they realize the bulk of their lives isn't in the future, but instead it is now. In a few years there will be no more safety net. No one looking out for you like your parents did. I don't really care what the others think. I admit it. I'm scared of going to college.

~Mike

As promised...

(my sister)

I'm rapidly improving from my sickness that I attained a few days ago. I can actually think now. Had MCAS today. Mad easy. They made it like so the lowest curriculum level had a really good chance at passing, so for me, in curriculum I, it was really easy. Like order of operations easy. Then I had way too much time afterwards. Everyone else brought a book except for me. And, yeah, while killing time, I made up this quote and now am determined to write it on every desk that I sit at.

"The mind is a book worth a million pages"

I'm such a loser. Oh well, at least I'm an intelligent loser.

But, yeah, my stupid chem (SAT II prep) class was so freaking boring. Sat around thinking about how much I'm gonna fail this test. Whatevs. I am only limited by the invisible barriers my mind sets. But still, I'm screwed. "520" was my score on one of the "practice" tests. Whatever. Someone drew a really crazy good picture of Einstein on the board, and that was pretty much the highlight of the last five hours of my life.

Soooo... more MCAS tomorrow...sister graduating in like a few days...summer in like a few weeks...sister goes to college in like a few months...I'm headed off there in a few years.

Wow, how time flies.

~Mike

Ok, it's been a long day. I'm so freaking sick. I can barely talk. Soooo... Volleyball season is coming to a close, and i'm sorta happy, sorta sad, 'cause there's many things I'll miss about volleyball, but there's also the down-side of volleyball.

So, yeah, this year has gone by sooo fast. Yeah, above is one of the pictures that I took in like the beginning of the year, but it seems like i took it like soo recently. I bet you can't guess what the picture is of, though. I've been meaning to post a few of them, so now I have. There shall be more to come, but I'm just too lazy to scan them all in right now.

Soo, in other news, I just finished watching the movie "Ice Harvest". Twas very interesting. It was like one of those movies where you had to pay attention, or else you would get like totally lost. And I didn't pay attention. It was still awesome though.

So, yeah, I've been watching a lot of movies and reading a lot of books recently that have like a ton of little metaphors that only the really close readers catch on to. I love finding all these little things, but sometimes I can't help but think that the author didn't mean to put them there, and I'm just finding random details that just happen to collaborate with each other to create a larger picture. I don't know. It sometimes happens in real life too.

But, yeah... uhm.... my throat is really killing me right now, so I better get some sleep.

I DONT WANT TO BE SICK FOR THE MCAS (like I was last time)

~Mike

what I feel like doing right now

First of all (before I forget) Just wanted to let y'all know, I'm officially on myspace-
http://www.myspace.com/whitefrog898

but, yeah, I've decided the movie "Animal House" is awesome. Saw it the other day, and Kent Dorfman is not a very good representative of me. The movie was so freakin old, though. I hate old movies for some reason.

But, yeah, I've just spent like an hour signing up for myspace, and now I'm one of those losers that like relies on myspace for like all their social interactions. Whatevs, I could have spent that hour doing some of my endless homework, but what's the point if I know I'm going to get the same grade no matter whether I work hard or not.

I'm so freakin dead 'cause I have to read this scripture thing in church tomorrow, and I haven't even gone through it once so far. I'll probably like fall asleep halfway through reading it. Ah well. I'm a good reader.

I'm like half asleep as it is, so I guess I probably should either practice my reading thing or go to sleep...(or do my homework)...

...I hope I make it through this year in one part...

~Mike

Ok, so the last few days (or rather the last week) have been stressful. Sooo much with sports, school, and chem sat 2.

So, yeah, pretty much, I'm headed to JV (as opposed to JV2), and I may be starting. But, yeah, today it really was annoying that the coach told me that I was going to play, but it really turned out that he didn't have room to have me play. So, they didn't have a JV2, so I basically sat on the bench the whole time, waiting nervously for my time to play. But, the coach never put me in, and I ended up wasting my Friday afternoon in some high school in Needham. I know it sounds pretty pathetic to barely be starting on JV, but w/e. Large schools and small teams really suck. And it doesn't help that I'm only mediocre at volleyball. I really would rather do track (or, rather, I'm much better at track).

But, school's been stressfullissssimo too. I've had an unimaginable amount of homework the past week. Been up studying till like 12:30 each night, and right now (at 10:20) my eyelids are already beginning to droop.

And so, goin on the walk for hunger on Sunday. Haven't raised any money or gotten any sponsers so far. Oh well, my parents will give a good 50 dollars, so I don't have to worry about it.

But, yeah. I'm just fine, and beginning to think I'm actually gonna survive this year. wow. Once I finish this year, I'm halfway to college. Once I'm in college, I'm on my own, self-sustaining, self-motivating. I'm really screwed, but I'll get better in 2 years.

Soo... my eyelids are closing now.
Byebye
~Mike

I've been thinking. The truth is I can’t remember her that much anymore. Those summer days at my house, when it was such a treat to have them over here from California. I can even remember the time when we visited them on our welcome back visit once they came back from Japan. The loud noises of a naval port still ring in my ears which my Uncle worked at. The bustling environment never distracting from the fun I was having with my rarely-seen cousins.

Everything I can remember about her seems like foggy movie I can only partially visualize. I can see us lying on the floor, laughing for at least ten minutes straight. We sure did have fun that day. I remember taking turns jumping off her bunk bed, giggling at the grumpy neighbor downstairs yelling at us to be quiet. She was like a silent giant. She wasn’t an adult, and she wasn’t a kid, but she sure was someone to look up to. I remember a day when I could see this teenager clearly. I could remember all the time I spent with her. I remember the day that both my parents came to pick me up from school. That day my parents took me and my sister into the living room after school to talk with us. That day, I learned from my teary-eyed parents that I will have to hold onto those memories tightly. That day, I learned that the fragile life of my beloved cousin had been cut short by a thick tree next to a windy road.
Even the memories that I find most important have slipped away over time.

~Mike

Good news. I passed my driver's test. Just a hint of advice for anyone who is planning on taking their test any time in the future. Never ask the policeman how to put the car in drive.

So I got up at like 6:18 in the morning, after my alarm clock failed to go off. I figured I had plenty of time before I would actually be taking my test, so I wasn't really worried at that point. Then, all the sudden (it seemed like five minutes after I got up), I was standing outside in the cold with a group of shivering, nervous teenagers. Ok, so maybe I was the only one who was nervous. Cams auto school is a scam. They charge you to wake up at six fifteen on a Saturday morning, and they make you stand outside in the freezing cold and wait for several hours to for the stupid test when I could have just taken it after school some day like everyone else at the RMV. But anyways, there I was, standing next to a bunch of people I dont know. I was expecting to have to wait another hour or so before I was actually taking my test, so I sort of relaxed and zoned out.

Then, all the sudden, they were yelling my name, and I jumped in the car before I could get nervous. I started the car, adjusted the mirrors, and all the little things you have to do before you start driving, but then I couldn't figure it out. I didn't know how to put the car in drive because I was used to having the shifter in the center, whereas this car had it next to the driving wheel. So I asked the policeman, "how do you put it in dri..."

She gave me this look. I won't ever forget that look. If taking a drivers test was skating on thin ice, I heard the ice crack beneath my skates. She could have failed me there, but no. I didn't finish the sentence. I gave it another try and made it. From then on, I knew I was going to pass the test. How stupider could I get than not putting the car in drive. So I passed it. Now I'm an adult. Or at least more of an adult than I was before.


~Mike

livin for today...cause we can't change what'll happen tomorrow today

SOoooo... I can't WAIT FOR TOMORROW

well, at least for at about 3 o'clock in the afternoon tomorrow. I'm soo nervous for my driver's test. I'll freakin kill myself if I fail it. I think the 8 hours of sleep I've gotten in the past two days will be sufficient to be able to concentrate long enough not to crash the car. Sooo anoying....I just want to HAVE MY LICENSE!!!

Ah welll....at least I don't have to wait till I'm 17 to get my license. If they pass the whole driving bill thing, the class of '09 and beyond are going to be soooo annoyed.

In other news, school is pretty good. More importantly, volleyball is getting quite annoying. It turns out that our varsity coach put too many people on varsity to begin with, so today we had this whole "tryout in the middle of the season" thing. So, now we have four more people that are on jv (like there wasn't enough already). A few of them were like "I'll quit the team". I was thinking, go ahead. More room for me to play. Ahhh. Life.

sooo.. not much new around here. cant wait to fall asleep tonight...and I'm dreading having to be woken up at 6 15. Right now I have no intention of falling asleep anytime soon, which is probably not a good idea, but oh well... people don't have any say in their future, so they might as well live their lives for today. (wow, wasn't that random)

Alrighty, off to a night of web design

~Mike

sooo...it turns out that the vacation I have been waiting for for soooo long has already passed me by.... Oh well.

This past week has been wicked busy...sports, homework, schoolwork, vacations....it's been fun....

So now, because I REALLY don't want to think too much at 10:40 on a Saturday night, I'll do a survey that I found on myspace

TELL ME ABOUT YOURSELF - The Survey
Name:	Mike Dorfman
Birthday:	August 1, 1989
Birthplace:	Here (Newton)
Current Location:	Here (Newton)
Eye Color:	blue/gray/yellow
Hair Color:	blond (the blue has pretty much faded out now)
Height:	5' 8"
Right Handed or Left Handed:	right handed, left footed
Your Heritage:	German/Russian
The Shoes You Wore Today:	running shoes (I think Nike)
Your Weakness:	indecisive
Your Fears:	natural disasters
Your Perfect Pizza:	just the uncooked dough (who likes the rest anyways?)
Goal You Would Like To Achieve This Year:	undestand myself (and how I want to be viewed)
Your Most Overused Phrase On an instant messenger:	"yeah"
Thoughts First Waking Up:	frustration about not having enough time to sleep
Your Best Physical Feature:	my hands
Your Bedtime:	whenever I feel like it (anytime between 9 and 12 depending on the day)
Your Most Missed Memory:	elementary school (especially 5th grade)
Pepsi or Coke:	neither (I don't drink soda)
MacDonalds or Burger King:	First of all, it's McDonalds, and Burger King sucks
Single or Group Dates:	single
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea:	Lipton
Chocolate or Vanilla:	Vanilla (only if your talking about ice cream)
Cappuccino or Coffee:	Coffee (not that I drink it)
Do you Smoke:	no
Do you Swear:	(generally) no
Do you Sing:	if I have to
Do you Shower Daily:	yes
Have you Been in Love:	depends what you consider... sort of...from what my inexperienced mind tells me, yes
Do you want to go to College:	yes
Do you want to get Married:	yes
Do you belive in yourself:	every once in a while
Do you get Motion Sickness:	on planes, yes
Do you think you are Attractive:	sometimes
Are you a Health Freak:	no
Do you get along with your Parents:	generally
Do you like Thunderstorms:	yes (usually)
Do you play an Instrument:	piano, trumpet, keyboard, drums, and still learning more
In the past month have you Drank Alcohol:	no
In the past month have you Smoked:	no
In the past month have you been on Drugs:	no
In the past month have you gone on a Date:	no
In the past month have you gone to a Mall:	no
In the past month have you eaten a box of Oreos:	no
In the past month have you eaten Sushi:	no
In the past month have you been on Stage:	no
In the past month have you been Dumped:	no
In the past month have you gone Skinny Dipping:	no
In the past month have you Stolen Anything:	no
Ever been Drunk:	no (wow, that was a lot of "no's" in a row)
Ever been called a Tease:	nope
Ever been Beaten up:	yes
Ever Shoplifted:	possibly
How do you want to Die:	diving to keep an old lady from getting hit by a bus
What do you want to be when you Grow Up:	physics/chemist/biologist (something in the sciences)
What country would you most like to Visit:	SPAIN (I REALLY want to go this summer)
In a Boy/Girl..
Favourite Eye Color:	green
Favourite Hair Color:	blond with brown streaks
Short or Long Hair:	long
Height:	I don't care
Weight:	I don't care
Best Clothing Style:	however they want to dress (but, if I had a choice, something colorfull)
Number of Drugs I have taken:	zero
Number of CDs I own:	a lot...around 30
Number of Piercings:	none
Number of Tattoos:	none
Number of things in my Past I Regret:	too many to count

revealing all my personal information on a web site open to anyone is actually a little creepy. Ah well, I've already spent 20 minutes filling this out, I might as well post it....whatevs...

goodnight y'all

Sooo.... nothing really new
same old boring life. Just took a six hour (detoured) car ride home from pennsylvania, to Cornell, to Hamilton, all the way home. Twas quite long and boring. Now (in a day) I'm off to the cape for a few days. I can't wait!

I can't wait for the summer either. Alaska (unfortuanetely not Spain) here I come.

But, in the mean time, I'm stuck here, on this stupid computer, waiting for life to happen.

Byebye

ok
sooo...fun day
six hours (or more) of driving is always fun. Also got to see many, many colleges, and now I'm here at my grandparents' house.

Ah welll, not much else to say...soooo happy vacation is here. Finally I get to relax a little

bye for now
~Mike

*insert random title*

ssooooo bored...

'twas one of those days where I felt like doing many things, but my mind doesn't allow me to do so. The hours seemed like they were melting off the clock, slowly but surely, and every hour that was gone was a missed opportunity that I could have taken advantage of. Maybe I should start running again. I mean, xc is right around the bend. It's never too early to start training. Plus, running makes me feel soo good, not only because it gets me in such good shape, but also because there's something about it that makes you think that you've accomplished a great deed by running 7 miles. Maybe it'll make me think that I actually did something on days like these that seem to be a waste.

Saturday night alone.
Stupid movies are no cure.
seems like my life. I haven't even freaking gone out with *my* friends on a Saturday night...in several years. It's sad. I don't really care, though, until people begin talking about their Saturday night experiences and only then do I realize what I'm missing. Ah well...it's all good. I'll be fine.

On another note, I can't wait for either April Vaca or, even better, the SUMMER. No more school work, no more problems... just running, nature, music, computer, and tv (in that order). Plus, during both, I'm doin wicked awesome stuff. (I could list it, but that would be quite a long list =))

SOOOO, it all basically boils down to school and homework are creating all the problems in my life (which isn't true, but I'll say it is).

better get some (early) sleep now...

byebye

...following my own footsteps [not someone else's]...

Sooooo....

So freaking angry right now at anyone who mentions volleyball. So it turns out the coach put me on jv2 instead of jv.
I would be fine with that, only if jv2 ACTUALLY PLAYED. It's so freaking annoying 'cause I was out for a few days, and the coach thought I had left the team, so it turns out he didn't put me on the roster. So now I'm stuck on jv2 at least for the time being. (especially since we have a game tomorrow and friday, and he's going to keep the same freaking roster).

Ok, so anybody who had any idea about what I just ranted about, good for you. Sometimes I even have a little trouble understanding what I'm saying.

So, yeah, other than this afternoon, I've been having a pretty sweet week. When it is 70 degrees out one day (sweet), and snowing the next (even sweeter) it is an awesome week for me.

Procrastination....is the key to everything. Sometimes I try to procrastinate and fail miserably because I find myself working diligently on my homework. As a matter of fact, I'm trying to procrastinate now, but failing miserably because I am studying for a math test at the same time I'm writing this. SOO WEIRD!!

Thurdays are awesome, but tomorrow is even awesomer (lol, don't even say it). I have absolutely NO time whatsoever to get any work of any kind done seeing that I'm going all the way to Weymouth to spike some balls. Pretty sweet (only if I could be on varsity, or even jv). It'll be fun anyways.

Nine PM. Nine PM my ass. It's freakin 10:10 PM. I hate when people aren't acurate. Of course, I should know whether it's nine or ten.

Ah well, I would say I've gotta stop procrastinating, but I'm already doing work. = )

byebye

OK, so a few things

fristly (and most randomly), I found this wicked awesome website where you can do all these cool things with your blog through javascript. this site is insanely awesome and you could probably find a few of these things on this page.

I'm so deadd from tiredness and homework right now, and really dont want to do anything school-related.

byebye

Why can't I just start this year over?

So yeah, amazingly freakingly awesomely sick right now. I felt every form of pain while waiting for my parents to pick me up from volleyball.

but, yeah, I think I'm beginning to catch up with my life that's been running away from me lately. Yeah, there's a lesson here- don't overthink life.

but, yeah, volleyball+school=my life (right now)

soooo bored.

soooo sick

I want to skip MCAS tomorrow, but that's a bad idea.

better get some (early) sleep

byebye

MCAS

MCAS is seriously annoying. I mean, this next week, it seems like, because we don't have homework or anything, we get the week off. WRONG. This week could decide the rest of my life. This week is representing my average high-school carreer with just one sample. What if I have a bad day? That shows to all my the colleges that I'll be applying to that I've had a bad high school carrer. So unfair. I can't believe I am actually studying for it.

Onto a different note
I can't wait for the summer. Alaska is sooo awesome.


now back to studying
byebye

duuude....

I've done some research on the new Ipod and it's looking pretty sweet.

10 things I would like to see on the next Ipod

• a camera

• a wireless internet connection (or if not, at least a wireless connection to the Itunes store so you can buy songs or videos on the go)

• a very large touch screen, which could be flipped to go wide screen for some movies

• TV/radio tuner

• And, to follow up on the previous one, tivo-like capabilities in order to record your tv shows

• built in voice recorder

• windows xp on your ipod (man, that would be sweet)

• adobe photoshop/keyboard/mouse attatchments for your ipod

• A cell phone on your ipod

• And, finally, downloadable games

I bet apple won't do any of this stuff, though. I would be surprised if they even have anything remotely close to what its customers are looking for

pretty cool...

homework now.