Last post of ever

I am retiring the blog. As many of my friends have said, there is no point to this. If people have any interest in me, they'll talk to me. This is stupid. I have to give all of this up.

I just can't do this anymore.

I can't wait for January

It was awfully rainy today.

Why did I feel like a hero, smiling and biking through the rain while everyone else was huddled under umbrellas waiting for their rides? It was actually really entertaining. They were either thinking...woah...he's cool or...woah...he's absolutely crazy. I don't mind either one.

And apparently, I almost got run over today while biking to school. Maybe the positive effects which biking has on our environment do not surpass the dangers of getting hit. Maybe I should just chill and not worry too much about global warming and rising gas prices and all of that stuff. If I don't risk my life now, I'll be risking my future. I think I'll risk it.

Not that biking is that much of a danger.

Wow, I really need to chill right now. I am worrying about way too many things. I feel like I could explode. I feel like I could punch through my wall right now, but no, that's not a good idea. Maybe I should run more. Maybe running made me numb to everything around me. Whatever it is, I want to be numb again. I at least don't want to think about how I feel.

Why is it that the more I try to focus on college essays, the more I realize that what I am writing really is not me. I just got an English paper back from my teacher. I am very frustrated with the grade that he gave me, but what frustrates me even more is what he told me to do. He said to rewrite is, yes, that is the good part. But he said “you might want to take a look at some of my edits.” I mean, not to get him wrong, but he edited more than half of the words in my paper. Literally, he reworded things in a way that I would never say them, he added weird metaphors which I would never use, he added facts that aren’t true but make a better storyline. He changed what I said. This isn’t a college essay, but I’ve seen the same in the essays that I’ve asked my teachers to read over. They change my voice. They change things that aren’t necessarily wrong, but they change them to make them “sound better”. Sure they sound better to them. But that is their voice, not mine.

Now, how am I supposed to say that the rewrite that I will turn in tomorrow is mine?

I might just write the name of my English teacher in the upper-right corner.

and again

Minneapolis, MN
taken from the bridge next to the bridge that collapsed

So yeah.

I can't think of what to write here. So I chose quotations relatively randomly from this web site thingy..

The happiest person is he who thinks the most interesting thoughts. -William Lyon Phelps

All this will not be finished in the first 100 days. Nor will it be finished in the first 1,000 days, nor in the life of this Administration, nor even perhaps in our lifetime on this planet. But let us begin. -John F. Kennedy

Do not look back in anger, or forward in fear, but around in awareness. -James Thurber

A painter paints pictures on canvas. But musicians paint their pictures on silence. -Leopold Stokowski

...so..yeah. That's my daily dose of thinking. And...I am such a loser for reading quotes in my spare time.

wicked happy

So, yes. NNHS xc lost today. It's funny how cross country is. You have good days and bad days. You can go from one minute slower than your best time to one minute faster than your best time back to one minute slower than your best time in three consecutive races. A lot of it is about luck. What we eat that day, how cold it is, how much we are motivated. It's all luck, really.

But, yeah. At least Seb did well.

Hmm. What should I talk about now? I really have nothing entertaining to say.

Maybe I should talk about how much I want to do stuff with my friends but like have no time to do so. But I actually really do. I am busy during the week, but I don't know the last time I've done something actually entertaining on a Friday night.

But, yeah. Who wants to read my Colby essay? Oh yes.

Writing prompt:
Discuss this quotation

“Nothing in life is to be feared, it is only to be understood. Now is the time to understand more, so that we may fear less.”
-Marie Curie

"When I was in third grade, I realized that life is very fragile. My parents sat both me and my sister down on the couch, and they told us that the life of my 16 year old cousin was cut short by a thick stump on the side of a slippery road. I didn’t know how to deal with it. My life was no longer a thing to take for granted. My life could end just like that, without any warning.

I wasn’t sure how to deal with this truth in third grade. After a few weeks, I began eating less. Within a month or two, I had lost over 10 pounds. My parents couldn’t figure out what was wrong with me, so they ran many, many tests for several months, each coming out as negative. Finally, by the time my doctor recommended I see a therapist, my ribs were visible through my back.

My trip to the therapist was not only to help with my weight problem. After my cousin’s death, I had become more and more attached to my parents, never wanting to be separated from them. It seems that fear had taken over my life, fear of losing the ones I love, fear of losing my own life, fear that something unexpected would happen which would separate me from my parents forever.

After a few months with the therapist, things seemed to be improving. Instead of acting on my fears, I understood them. I understood that what happened to my cousin was not normal. I understood that what happened to my cousin will most likely not happen to me any time soon. Now I understand that worrying about these futile things, the one in a million chances, is not worth it.

I no longer fear death such as that of my cousin. I do not fear what could happen, but rather accept that it could happen and live my life not worrying. We must understand that life is too short to worry about it ending. In a way, life is like going skydiving. We all are going to hit the ground sometime. It is just a matter of how much we enjoy the ride. "

Uhm, good job if you read all that.

Peace.

SSA8MyBsaWZl

"Somewhere at the edge of the bell curve is the girl for me"

So, yeah. Somewhere at the edge of the bell curve. They'll have to find me. Cause where I am now is where I want to be. The status quo is amazing. Although it is not necessarily the best thing.

I think I am getting over this terrible teenager stage.

I am so amazingly happy with everything right now.

So there was this kid. This kid on the Cross Country team (and, I know, I'll stop obsessing over xc in a few weeks, don't worry). He was biking down about a block from my house. Or maybe more. But really close. And so, I kinda knew him. But last Saturday, I noticed police tape and a kinda heap of metal on the road. It was the bike the police were apparently trying to piece together. So then on Monday, I heard about this whole thing. This whole thing and who it involved.

You see, I could see myself doing exactly what that kid did. Biking across the street. Not looking. And bam. In the hospital with almost every bone in his face broken. But he was wearing a helmet. So he's not dead, luckily.

So the team sends him a card, I send him something saying to get well soon. You know, all light-hearted and stuff. Like sending a card to the president. You don't expect anything to come of it or it to have any importance.

Then I hear from my coach who visited him in the hospital. He's not looking too good. He's not looking good at all. He's currently in a medically-induced coma, but the doctors aren't really sure whether he'll actually come out of that coma once they take him off the medications. He hasn't responded since the accident (although the doctors think they might have felt him squeeze his finger when they were seeing if he was conscious).

But this could have been me. This could have easily been me. I bike every day. And I usually bike without a helmet. Without a helmet. I would be dead right now. That easily. Without warning.

One slight mistake can bring the ultimate consequence.

...at least I understand something about black holes

Ok, so change of topic.

Science.

I was thinking today and wondering how moons and other objects are able to stay adrift in space with just enough acceleration to keep from getting sucked towards a planet, but not enough acceleration to escape its gravitational pull. Then I thought, wouldn't it be cool if the earth could act as a huge magnifier, pulling light ever so slightly towards it, therefore creating a point where this light would meet back up and like be slightly stronger than normal light.

Ok, so I probably lost you there. So then I thought about black holes. Light is both a wave and a particle, and a black hole, to my understanding, is basically a really, reallly compressed planet, sucking in light that comes at it. Now what if this light is able to act as a satellite? If light traveled at just the correct angle across just the right distance from a black hole with just the right mass, the light would therefore be caught in the black hole's field of gravity, spinning around and around the black hole just as Saturn's rings spin around Saturn.


Alright. Now what?

Hmm.

"You dream it as you tell it, hoping others might dream along with you"
Tim O'Brien

Senior year will never happen again

(and I'm not sure if that's a good thing)

So I'm not so sure if this is good or what that I'm posting again.

College essays are reasonably terrible. The fact that I have to write for something is really annoying me. I mean, with school and everything, I am used to forceful writing. But forceful semi-creative writing...not so much. I've written so many things, deviating ever so slightly from the truth that I don't even know who I am any more.

Who am I? Only you (the general you) can answer that.

So, yeah. What to say, what to say.

"In the beginning of sixth grade, my English class was told to fill out a sheet, along with a picture of myself, to be hung up out in the hallway. Everybody quickly filled out theirs, but I, being careful to fill out the description of me correctly, took more time to fill it out. Finally, when I was done, I went out alone to hang up my sheet in the hallway.

The next day, I looked over my classmates’ sheets. One section of the sheet asked us to fill in the blank in the statement “I am ___”. Everyone else wrote his/her names, but I wrote “happy person”. When all my new classmates and possible friends came into school that sunny day, they looked over all the other sheets, and chuckled at mine. They chuckled at my lack of knowledge. They chuckled at my mistake, although I revealed more about myself in that one blank than a name could.

Later that day, my happiness was tested. Towards the end of the day, there was an announcement telling us to proceed to our homerooms. When I saw my homeroom teacher nearly crying, I knew there was something wrong. But I stayed happy. Even when they announced that two planes had hit the world trade centers and pentagon and that thousands of people had died, I was still smiling. I did so not to make light of the situation, but rather to comfort my classmates. In the midst of sadness and fear, I wanted to be happy so that my classmates could follow my lead and realize that sadness is pointless."

Be happy. That's all we really have.

So, yeah. Summer's ending. And with it the relaxation and happiness that it brings. It seems that no matter how bored I am, it is even hard to sit down and focus on my college applications. Not that they're super-exciting.

So, yeah. One more week of relative relaxation. Then school takes over my life. Why do we even spend 1/4 of our lives learning how to live a better life? I guess school is necessary for other reasons, too.

So, yes. I have so much more left to say. But I will refrain from telling it to people I don't know.

k,peace out. It'll probably be a long, long time before I post here again.

The Rich

Ok, so communism sucks. We all know that. But what we really need is a balance between communism and what we have now. We can't have this social divide in our country. Some have so much money they will never need to work again while others have so little money working double shifts on three different jobs won't pay the bills. So, basically..we need to get the money in our economy out of the hands of the rich. Taxes do this, but even they aren't enough. We need to get money out of the hands of the rich and into the hands of the poor.

But really the only problem that we will have to face sometime is overpopulation. With less people, there will be more of everything. There will be more to survive on.

Just a thought I had late at night.

100'th post

but yeah. The movie "Once" seems amazing too. I don't know. I really have nothing else to talk about.

hmmm....the protocols of zion. HMMM. Absolutely terrible. Well, the movie is good. So apparently, there are people out there who believe that on 9/11, when the world trade centers fell, 4000 jews didn't show up to their work at the WTC. Wow. Could people be more obsessive. People try to find a reason for everything, a cover-up for everything, even if it does not exist. I know over 3,000 people died. I know people are frustrated and want someone who they can personally take revenge on. I know many people are grown up with the idea that "jews are bad" cemented into their brain. But there is really no one group of people to blame for 9/11.

Speaking of embarassing...look at this race. The world-class runners were on track to getting very, very good times, but the officials lost track of the number of laps! A tragedy only a runner can truly understand.





And don't forget

to wear sunscreen

Peace

Some pictures

Mexico Trip




I'll post more on this later.

p.s.
I am amazingly happy.
oh yeah, and you can see, I changed the maps on the right hand side. Now they show the current lightning strikes and radar in the United States.

so many things

ok, so just got back from Mexico, which was amazingly sweet. I saw pretty much everything. Starting with Merida, I had a good mexican city experience, then to Chichen Itza to get the historical background of Mexico, (along with exploring a rainforest), then to Playa del Carmen and Cozumel to view the marine life of the Gulf of Mexico. Overall, it was quite sweet.

Only two weeks into summer. It is amazing so far.

Yeah. Basically.

and, oh, the iphone. Absolutely amazing. Except for the price. But, still...maybe in a year I'll buy one. I'm a loser and watched the whole 20-minute guided tour of the iphone from apple, but there are other shorter reviews on youtube and such. But all of these videos can't do the iphone justice. I actually accidentally ended up going to an AT&T store and actually tried it out, and it is better than any of the videos portrayed it to be.

so, yeah. I actually am sorta splitting this post up oddly, seeing that I am like writing it in pieces over like 4 days...but it was nice in Mexico. The Mexicans saw us as one thing and only one thing. TOURISTS. So, basically, we stood out a bit. Everywhere we went, people were hassling us to go into their stores. For every cab ride, if we didn't ask the price up front, cab drivers would double and even triple the fares if we asked what the price was once we stopped. The last day, we got charged 10 dollars to travel about a mile and a half by cab. It was pretty bad. I would have liked to do a service trip to Mexico with my church or something so that I could be viewed as someone who is solely there to help. Oh well.

But, in a way, being a tourist wasn't the worst thing. What I hate (and this is really random) is when people stereotype me by my looks. Well..not even looks...for some people, if they see a teenage guy on the street, they will cross the road. When I was walking home from fireworks tonight, I was just like walking behind this mother and her kid, along with a million other people, and the mother kept on blatantly turning her head and staring at me. Then she crossed the road. I mean COME ON...I'm not the type to mug people. Why are people so afraid of me?

Soooo....the songs I am loving right now...Breathe in (Frou Frou), Hey There Delilah, and Snow (Hey Oh). Oh yes. Frou Frou makes such good music videos, too.



excuse meee too busyyy writing your tragedyyyy

heheee...time for a Garden State quote
"Even though the past makes you numb to life, make a spontaneous decision to live your life now in the present...because you only get one chance at this thing...everyday attempt to do something that will make up for all this mess."

haha, I used to think quotes like this actually had some significance to me. Except I used to try to apply it to the littlest issues in my life. My life isn't a mess. And I have to stop thinking that quotes like these should have any importance to me.

OH well. Hmmm...running out of things to sayy...launched my rocket today...and lost it in the trees...lol, couldn't have guessed that one. It was pretty sweet, though. OOO and I got my ACT scores back and did wicked well. I am going to college after all!

so, yeah. Summer is sweet. Life is sweet. Everything is sweet.

Peace

something

Just thought I'd share that. I found it, along with some other cool pictures here. Puts things in perspective.

p.s.

http://www.mountwashingtonroadrace.com/

I am going to do this next year.

Tired.

So.

Officially one more final. Then done. Ahh..that will be amazing.

So, then what? Mexico on Thursday? Yup. Then Maine. Then smuggling fireworks with my sister. Or we might just legally set them off in New Hampshire. Then looking forward to long summer runs and late summer nights and bug spray and sunscreen and all those other things that don't remind you of a specific thing but of a feeling. A feeling of freedom, and relaxation and warmth and, most of all, happiness.

Summer, in all its glory, is coming. No time to think of what your grades are or where you're going to college. Just summer.

uhm, another post?

xkcd.com

Sooo..yah. Nothing much.

Basically, the Newton North Volleyball team rocks. Uhm, they don't seem very good, but for some reason they just keep on winning and they actually got to the state finals and are playing on Saturday. It will be amazing.

But, yeah. Another sweet song; Trust Me by the Fray.

Other than that....exactly 13 days left of school. But like half of those don't count cause they're finals. I am so excited for the summer.

Really don't have anything else to sayy. So I guess I won't say anything.

Life in jail.

seriously, what is it? Why do we keep on throwing people in jail?

I guess we need someone to blame. Just finished reading an article about two pilots who accidentally clipped a 737 on their landing. Their plane made an emergency landing and landed safely, but the 737 crashed, killing the 154 people on board. So, yes, this is terrible. 154 people shouldn't have died that day. But still, we shouldn't be putting all the blame the ones who actually caused the accident. It was an accident; It was their fault, but throwing them in jail isn't fixing anything. It is like throwing 2 innocent people into jail. Yes, they made mistakes, but don't we all? These people could have been any of us. We all make mistakes; we all are capable of creating such a disaster, but are usually lucky.

As a lady who I met from prison a few years ago said, they were just in the wrong place at the wrong time. That's all it takes to get a life in prison.

Getting over the habit

K, so nothing really much is goin on now.

Well...actually...volleyball is going on...which is sweet. Or it is at least sweet to watch. So basically...we went against Brookline the other day and it was like a crazy, crazy game. Five matches make up a game and all of the matches are to 25 except for the fifth one (so the winner is basically who wins three games first). Uhm, so yeah...with Brookline we like lost the first one by like two points, won the second one, lost the third one...till the fifth one...then we like just managed to win. Uhm, but yeah...the more exciting game was tonight where we lost the first two matches, but managed to save it and like win three in a row against a really good team.

But, yeah. Nothing else really. Took the (practice) MCAS today. Didn't really try and instead of answering the last open response question, I did an essay on why I thought American History shouldn't be on the MCAS. Whatevs. We're not even getting our scores back.

hmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmmm

I'm sooo happy now about soo many things! Uhm, why did I feel sad and frustrated a second ago? Ugh. I hate being a teenager.

Goodbye Newton North Track

Last meet on the NNHS track the other day. I'll post more on it some other day.

if only I could start to care...my dreams and my Wednesdays ain't going nowhere

I feel like I'm missing out on life.

Every time I see those stupid romances on TV or hear songs about anything romantic, or walk down the freaking school hallway, I get a feeling that I'm missing so much. I feel like I should be doing that. I should be living life like that. Like I should be feeling those feelings. Like I need someone.

But at the same time, I'm worried that what I'm trying to find isn't what's going to make my life any better.

whatevs. This is the last I'm gonna talk about this because the more I talk about it, the more it drives me crazy.

So, yes. According to my last post, I had my last track meet the other day. Actually, the last track meet on the NNHS track, which has been there ever since the original school was there.

So, yeah. I didn't run very well. I got passed by someone who never beats me. Oh well. I tied with my PR, so thats good. I'm so happy for my friends who all did so amazingly (ALEX P BREAKING 5=AMAZING).

But, yeah. All that's left now is a week of awesome runs to awesome places. Uhm, let's just hope we don't get in trouble. Is all I have to say.

But, yeah...life recently...has been oddly slow. This week has been going by pretty nicely. But then like today and yesterday afternoon came. UGH. I hate when I have nothing to do and have stuff planned out that never happens.

But whatevs. Next week will be fun.

Oh. And new favorite song. "You Don't Know" by Milo. I've never seen songs with the genre of "Easy listening", but that pretty much defines this song.

Oh yeah...the movie Babel is interesting. It is a bit confusing and doesn't really lead anywhere but is worth seeing if you like those movies that come together at the end.

And, yeah. The other movie I saw recently was Borat. Oh wow. Remind me NEVER to see anything like that ever again. It is absolutely terrible. I saw it because people told me that it like made fun of like racism and homophobia and all that. Well, it kinda does that. Except it more actually supports it than makes fun of it. Ugh. I can't believe people like that movie.

Oh well. Time to sleep now.

September

It was the beginning of 6th grade. We were the young kids on the block. We were just getting used to our new school.

On one particular fall afternoon, I had an interesting experience. From what I can remember, the day was just a normal day, and I was slowly getting into the rhythm of the new schedule.

The it hit me. It hit all of us. Kids started saying how Hebrew schools were canceled and after-school activities were canceled. I figured it was just the norm. Things get canceled...no big deal. The principal came over the announcement and told us to go to our homerooms. And so that wasn't too big of a deal, seeing that my homeroom was also the same room as my next class. And so then it started.

My English teacher came into the room. The second she started talking, I knew something was wrong. And I think the rest of the classroom got it, too because they soon all looked up at her, wondering what was happening. She said words like this..."you kids are growing up. You need to enter the world of adulthood. This is a scary world. (her voice was wavering with emotion) I don't mean to scare you, but this is a very, very scary world." Then she sat down, waiting for the announcement to come on. I felt like I could cry. But then I looked around at my table of emotionless peers and knew I needed to take a hold of my emotions. I felt trapped in this strange school, with no idea of where my parents and family were and no idea whether I would ever see them again.

And so the announcement came. We all had different experiences. I felt relieved. Some others worried about relatives. And even others joked about how the "football" (command center of nuclear weapons) was probably destroyed in the pentagon. At least I knew that the world was not ending (although it was much closer than I had realized). At least I knew what was going on.

And so I biked home with my sister. My aunt and uncle and cousins were over and there were high emotions. All I can really remember is my aunt telling me not to watch the news. But I seemed compelled to do so. I needed to know what was going on. As long as I knew the world was still not ending, I would be happy.

To this day, I remember the heart wrenching feeling of helplessness. As a matter of fact, today there was a power outage at my school and I felt as if the world could be ending. With all the commotion, my math teacher walking out of our classroom saying she had to pick up her son, all the confusion in the hallways, my cellphone not working, I felt as if there was something I didn't know. Like the world was ending and I had been totally blindsided by it.

As of today, the world hasn't ended. But it has made a huge impact on the lives of teenagers (along with everyone else. Whenever anyone asks me how old something is, I wonder..."Was it there before September 11th?"

p.s.
talk to me if you ever want me to talk to you again.

p.s.

pretty interesting picture I developed the other day
It is a double-exposure. Although it may be hard to tell how.

I don't really care anymore

You know what? I don't really care anymore.

All I care about is what you think, and apparently, you don't think too fondly of me.

Communication is key. So we're both at fault.

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In other news, last meet of the season on tuesday! I absolutely can't wait. I have to out-kick somebody in this race. I have a good feeling. I am going to go sub 5-10. I am going to absolutely kill this race.

Well, I should, seeing the training that I've been doing. The other day in the 90 degree heat, I did 3-600 at 70-73 per quarter, 2-400 at sub-70 (wow), and 6-200 at really fast. I think that will improve me so much.

So yeah, speaking of ending, the school year is like almost done! Bio AP monday, which is going to make my weekend torture, but whatevs. I'll set my goal to Saturday the 26th when there's a concert at the hatch shell which I am going toooo. I can't waitt.

Ooh. Good song. "Vienna" by the Fray. It is kinda a song I got a while ago, but am actually listening to all the way through this time. It fits my mood. Except I am a bit happier.

ooo...good news! I finished my song! Uhm, it is sweet. It is amazing. Except it has nothing to do with me. Oh well. Now I have to write the piano part. That will be cool.

I like to say don't care what anybody thinks about me, what anybody suspects of me, any assumptions people make of me. But that is not true. I care more than anything about how others view me. As a matter of fact, running may be one of those things. When I know I make an impression on people, I am very happy. For most people it is the friendships they make when they run or the pure idea of running that they enjoy. But for me, it is the idea that I can do anything. It is the impression that I make on people that allows me to enjoy running.

I need to chill, sit back, and enjoy life a bit more.

So, lately

I am and have been absolutely dead tired for the past week or so. Today, pretty much the only thing that I really payed any attention to was the constant throbbing of my ankle from when I apparently sprained it yesterday while warming up. But yeah...even the meet yesterday is kinda a fuzzy fog in my memory...I am so dead tired. I think I did well? I know I got 5:15, but am not really sure if that's good or bad. Sure didn't feel too good.

I want to go skydiving so badly.

But, yeah...nothing really else is of any relative importance right now.

So, yeahh...this is a really cool video, but is like 9 minutes long. Uhm, you could watch the whole thing, or just fast forward to where the three guys in yellow are. It is amazing how people can do this.

Now it is time for me to continue on my never ending homework.

Buy a one-way ticket back to the place I used to be...

...So I can not only see you, but see the old me

The square root of 144 isssssss.....

haha. I have been asking that question randomly to every one of my family members since about 2nd grade. It is really funny cause I was first doing it to try to show off to everybody that I knew what a square root was, but then eventually it became obvious to everyone, so now I do it every once in a while just to sorta make fun of how I used to do it.

Uhm...today...absolutely nothing of interest. According to Adrian, I was a zombie when I was doing my painful workout on the track after school. Oh well. I was a zombie all day today, being sooo amazingly tired. Sometimes I think there's something wrong with me because so many other people are able to function on less sleep than this, yet I can't. Oh well...napping in the library is the nicest thing to do ever.

Oh yes. And those ACT classes from 6-10 yesterday night. Absolute torture.

But, yeah..my I am so behind on my year-long Bio project. It isn't even funny.

I am officially writing a song. Uhm...more like poetry? But with music. Well...singing poetry..with piano. So, yeah...basically that is a song. But, yeah..the title of this post is a sneak preview of the song. Uhm..so yeah.

I really feel like putting a link in here, but can't seem to find any cool sites. So, yeah...I guess maybe not.

Uhm...I think I need to get back to my homework

Peace.

Well everyone I know has got a reason to say put the past away

uhm..I am updating?

So todayy. Meet against Brookline. Supposedly the biggest meet in 7 years, but it didn't seem too bad. Uhm...I ran in the mile, running alongside the best miler in the state, Robert Gibson. So basically the race was really weird and we went out at a pace that was like probably right for the 2 mile when we were actually running the mile. Oh well. I got 5:15 and I'm proud of it.

So the meet was basically a landslide for Newton North. But then I went home and now have this terrible sore throat from the stupid (or rather amazing) weather.

Oh well. In any case, I have uhm..a test to study for which my history teacher told us today that it was tomorrow. So basically, I'm dead.

I've just realized how late I've been staying up. I really need to get some more sleep.

Uhm, that is really all I can say...I am so amazingly tired...
hmmm..I wish I could just stop time. Stop it for a while, just having time for everything that's going on. I wish I could press the pause button and enjoy everything in High School, not just pick and choose. Oh well. Too bad that button doesn't exist.

I really have nothing else to say

Peace

I really want to burn my bio book

So, yes. I am back from my wonderful college tour trip and now have way too much homework for my own good. Lets seeee...4 page spanish paper, English reading, History test, and finally crazy bio reading/bio lab. I worry wayy too much, but I know I'll eventually get them done.

The college trip was amazing and all, but I really couldn't wait to get back home. Maine was amazing. We stayed on a little inlet thing and our hotel had an amazing pier which went out about 400 meters (quite a ways). It was pretty cool.

But, yeah. Who cares about that. Uhm...I really have nothing important to say. So should I say anything at all? I have no idea.

So basically, I have been thinking way too much lately. Thinking about stupid, trivial things, about things that don't really matter in the scheme of things, but still thinking nonetheless. You know what our real problem is? The human population is too big. And, unfortunately, it is growing at an amazing rate. Which is better, to be born into a world where you have no chance of living a good life or not to be born at all? Basically, what we really need to do is cut down on the amount of people we have on this small planet and then that will solve almost all of our needs.

I don't know what else to write. So I guess I won't write anything else.

Oh well. This post was pointless.

Peace

Something random

Oh no. It is 10:55 and I am already tired. I am sitting here in this Montreal hotel public computer, having an awesomee time. Next to me, the door is so annoying, opening and closing every time someone goes in or out. I hear the French-speaking lady at the front desk...trying to understand her as she speaks to local guests.

This week has been eventful, yet very uneventful at the same time. I have done the same thing over, and over, and over again. Go into a college, take a tour, see what I like, what I dislike and try to come to some conclusion. They are really all the same. They all have somewhere to eat, they all have somewhere to sleep, and they all have somewhere to learn. Oh, yeah. And it just so happens that all of them are having new science centers put in. (coincidence?) But they are all the same. I think my final decision will not be made by something tangible like a certain trait the college has, but rather a feeling that I get when I walk into that college. That is why it's important to visit.

Oh well. Saint Lawrence looks like my best bet so far.

Other than that, I have pretty much nothing to write about. I can't wait to get home, as always.

Ugh. How I live is kinda how I listen to music. If that makes any sense.

Montreal is so light. You would think that like oh yeah, I'm up in Canada, so I should see like so many stars, but nooo. Stupid city lights.

I should really get off the computer now. There is somebody waiting, and I actually think they can see me typing this...uhm..so yeah. Going to the BOONIES in Maine (lol, oldies term) so I probs won't have internet access till I get back home. But you never knoww.

Peace.

echo-o-o-inggg

Ok. First of all, I am very upset that New England is only getting rain out of this gigantic storm. That being said, I am VERY glad I am traveling through upstate New York this week and rightt throughh the snowwww!! Yes. I am very excited.

Now that we have that out of the way...I have way too much to say but am not sure how to say it. Oh well.

What I am thinking:

My grandparents house smells an aweful lot like many things. In the few hours I've been here, I've been reminded of like 50 different (random) things and events just by randomely smelling something.

I now realize that late-night swinging is the thing to doo...whether or not there are sketchy people walking alone through the playground at 10:30 at night.

This keyboard seems very easy to type on

I should go out and see the stars more often

I have so much other random stuff floating around my mind. It is really bad. I end up thinking about something and end up zoning out and the next thing I know people are all like..."Michael, are you feeling ok?"...and I just kinda say yeah..I am just tired. But that's really a lie. Things are echoing through my mind..that's all.

Why is it that when people I know introduce me to someone else as Michael and that other person then immediately says "Oh, welcome Mike!"? I mean...I don't really care which one I am called by but it just bugs me when people are like that.

So today. I would be suffering slash recovering from an intense race if only I wasn't in Pennsylvania right now.

I really should get more sleep.

Oh. And that terrible news today about the school shootings. I will not say much about this because I know we are all thinking about it, but it is absolutely terrible. My question is, what would drive someone to do such a terrible thing?

Ok. So I have so much left to do in this college trip but reallly want to be home right now, enjoying the terrible weather with my friends instead of suffering through it with random tour guides at colleges. Why can't I just zip forward to this summer. Or better yet to my acceptance into college. Ugh. But then I'll miss some major suffering years. And if suffering=life and life=awesome, then suffering must equal awesome. And...actually...I am pretty amazingly happy right now.

I really have nothing else to say.

Peace

yay. another post

I absolutely hate my computer. It deleted the whole post which I was about to publish. FRUSTRATING. Oh well.

So basically...this last week or two....or three have been absolutely amazingly tiring. From staying up late to running a million miles, I have basically died. Oh well.

So, yeahh...today was uneventful. Went to this holocaust remembrance thingy today, and a guy talked a lot about how the United States was slowly becoming harsher and harsher toward others. Nationalism really feeds our natural desire to hurt others. The United States is becoming less of a democracy and more of a dictatorship. Now we are able to arrest ANYONE for saying ANYTHING, according to the Patriot Act. Things that threaten the government, or could possibly be perceived to threaten the government in some way are not tolerated, and people can be arrested for no reason. Oh well. Not like one person can do anything. Except that's totally not true.

On another note. The military is stupid. "Don't ask don't tell" is blatantly homophobic, and the military refuses to recognize that. You know what? What I say is that the rate of homosexuality will rise drastically if a draft is put into effect. But, seriously. I am very angered at this stupid rule.

I FINALLY FIGURED SOMETHING OUT. Wow. I'm a loser. So basically, I figured out that if you have a laser and two perpendicular mirrors, forming 90 degrees, then once you shoot the laser at the corner between the two mirrors, the laser will always shine directly back at you. I AM A MATH GENIUS. Except not. Lol.

I had an incredible race the other day. I went out fast, but not too terribly fast, and was able to like actually place and get third place with a time of 5:14 in the mile. It was probably the most exciting race of my High School career.

Oh wells. I tried to find a survey that would satisfy my survey craving, but couldn't find any, so I'll just kinda make one up

Four songs that remind you of the Summer
Where'd you go, Fort Minor
You and I Both, Jason Mraz
MakeDamnSure, Taking Back Sunday
Transatlanticism, Death Cab for Cutie

Four songs that remind you of the Fall
How to Save a Life, the Fray
Samson, Regina Spektor
Must Get Out, Maroon 5
Who I am Hates Who I've Been, Relient K

Four songs that remind you of the Winter
Gravity, John Mayer
Anything from the album "Take This to your Grave", Fall Out Boy
The Sharpest Lives, My Chemical Romance
Split Screen Sadness, John Mayer

Four songs that remind you of the Spring
Graduation, Vitamin C
Float On, Modest Mouse
Read My Mind, the Killers
Wine Red, The Hush Sound


I have just listened to the most amazing song-type thing ever. Everybody's Free (to wear sunscreen) is amazing. That is what goes through my mind every day. I know it's sad. But I am constantly thinking about how something will affect me in the future. I am not taking risks. I am not doing anything that scares me. I'm gonna put this song on repeat. Oh my.

"Don't worry about the future; or worry, but know that worrying is as effective as trying to solve an algebra equation by chewing bubblegum."

brilliant.
I want to go skydiving.

I really have nothing else to write. Hopefully I will write something else soon, thoughh.

Exited to the max. Yet dead tired right noww.

I don't know what I am going to do with myself.

hehe..so cool. I used a double-exposure along with a tripod to make these pictures. I figured out what half of the shutter speed should be for the correct exposure, set my picture up, took one picture (with the camera on the tripod) and then took another one with the same shutter speed. It was pretty cool.

Ok, it's Saturday and I really don't feel like doing homework right now.

This week...nothing much. I've been dead tired because I didn't go to bed before 11:30 or 12 at all this week. And then Thursday was torture. Went to a party then got back at like 10 at night and had 2 tests to study for, a Spanish paper to write, and like a million other things to do. Oh well.

Other than that...I am very angry that Massachusetts has changed its driving laws. Now they're making laws for kids under 18 very, very harsh. Below is what the paper says
If you get a speeding ticket (previously a $50 fine)...

• your license is suspended for 90 days
• you get a $50 fine
• you have to go through a state-led "road rage" program
• you must complete an "attitudinal retraining course"
• you have to pay a $500 reinstatement fee
• additional $10 for every mile per hour you are above the speed limi

People who are just getting their license also need to drive for 40 hours with a parent (raised from 12 hours) and 12 hours in a driver education course (up from 6 hours). In addition, the police can pull you over if they think someone in your car is under 21 during your first 6 months with your junior license.

Ok. There are sooo many things wrong with this new system. First, as a kid on the track team put it, the state is being ageist. Sure there may be some teenagers who are bad drivers, but that doesn't mean that everyone else has to pay for their mistakes. The majority of teenagers that I know are pretty good drivers, and I have met some pretty terrible older drivers. The state was just penalized for being sexist, giving male drivers a higher insurance rate, so why is age any different?

Also, some people don't have enough money to pay these fines. In such a way, it will penalize people who don't have enough money to pay the $500 reinstatement fee and therefore can't drive because they don't have a license.

So, basically, the state is stupid.

Other than that...nothing much. Just finished running 800's. Sort of bittersweet having to wake up at 8:30 in the morning and run so much. The waking up part is hard..and the running is sweet. Oh well.

I really have nothing else to write. I've been listening to that song, "Inside of Love" by Nada Surf like nonstop. It is quite amazing.

But, yeah. Really nothing else to write

If you like piano, you'll like this video

but, yeyah.
Time for some homework.

Peace

PS
apparently, I messed something up so that now if you want to post a comment, you have to click on the link that says "X COMMENTS" below.

"Let Go" by Frou Frou. Listen to it.

Ok. I have decided that "the Garden State" is my new favorite movie. I don't even know why. I saw it at my uncle's house, and for some reason all of the movies I see there are somehow amazingly good...I don't know how to describe it. Momento was another one which I saw over there..quite amazing.

The Garden State also had amazing music. I have officially decided now that I like the Shins, especially their songs which were in the movie (new slang and caring is creepy). But, more importantly, the sort of theme song for the movie is a song which I can't stop listening to, "let go" by Frou Frou. Listen to it. It is amazing.

But, yeahh...this week has been fairly uneventful so far. I had a Spanish test today which I thought I studied enough for, but apparently not. On the other hand, I've been having very odd math quizzes/tests, thinking that I have failed them but actually acing them (I did that three times in a row).

Oh well. I realized the other day that men are stereotyped way too frequently. They are looked down upon for taking possession of their wives, but in reality, women are probably controlling over their husbands just as often. I actually heard two women talking about how if women don't know how to control their husband, then they don't deserve to be married to that man. Our society is full of stupid stereotypes, but it is just a matter of which ones are brought to our attention.

But, yeah...not much else to say. Crazy nights doing homework for the past week or so. my bio teacher said that at this time, we have so much work, but our work habits from the beginning of the year should make it easy for us to just "fly right over" the massive amount of work we have now. No flying in my mind, though. Just one image pops into my mind; going 80 down a freeway with a flat tire.

Peace

EDITT

Ok, 10 songs that start with C...
1. Caring is creepy- the Shins
2. Camisado- Panic at the Disco
3. California Justice- Five for Fighting
4. Cemetery Drive- My Chemical Romance
5. Clarity- John Mayer
6. Complentamente- Chetes
7. Change your mind- the Killers
8. Crooked Teeth- Death Cab for Cutie
9. City of Angels- Red Hot Chili Peppers
10. Come Right Out and Say it- Relient K

Sweet

not sure

Why is it that I get caught up in stupid music? I hate... I am very angered at the fact that I gave in and got a stupid ipod and started listening to stupid music. Now I get so distracted. So amazingly distracted.

Hmm...I have this bio lab that I reaaally don't want to do for tomorrow...well more kinda a like half-lab, but whatevs.

I am really bored, but reallly need to get back to work, so I will take a very short survey

Twenty Random Questions Survey
1. What are you wearing right now?	jeans and my xc sweatshirt
2. When is your birthday?	August 1st
4. Have you ever been on a snowmobile?	no...really want to, though
5. Soup or salad?	uhm... I don't really like either
6. Do you wear glasses?	nope
7. Have you ever been in love?	well..depends what one considers love
8. TV or movie?	uhm..movie?
9. Would you kill someone?	no...
10. What is your favorite flavor in general?	vanilla...I am very boring
11. Hug or kiss?	hugss
12. Math or science?	science all the wayy (yess ap bio)
13. Favorite country?	Switzerland (only because August 1st is their independence day)
14. Do you believe in love?	yes. I think.
15. Do you hate someone?	not that I'd be willing to admit.
16. How are you feeling right now?	tired, bored
17. Would you sell your soul to the Devil?	probably not
18. Long or short hair?	long all the wayy...except it takes a while to grow it out and in the intermediate stages it doesn't look too good.
19. Do you study the Bible?	In a way. I know most parts of the bible..but I don't like study it.
20. Have you ever gone to a mall?	yes? Who hasn't?

I always hate those things. They're pretty much pointless and reveal way too much information about yourself to random people. Oh well...this one wasn't too terribly revealing.


Peace

Make a wish. It's 11:26. (I missed 11:11)

Well. I am angry right now. Well, in a way, sort of. I was studying for a bio test which I have tomorrow since about 7:00. And now I realize that it's not tomorrow. Oh, wow. I'm stupid.

But, yeah. Hmmm..

I had an uneventful day. Went to school at noon cause it was a shoorrrt dayy. Quite sweet. I was so pleased with my luxurious brunch of UNO's homemade pizza that I like ended up almost being late to school and having to bike furiously up like crazy hills (when I was planning on walking) to get to school on time. But, yeah...English class=I don't have to pay attention, History=I was watching a movie and then I had a free in which I discussed schtuff about my schtupid photo project. Well, maybe it's not terribly stupid. Oh, AND. I turned my Junior Thesis in today. 12 pages of pure glory, I was like so proud when I felt actually how thick it really was (Final draft+bibliography+bibliographic essay=5000 wordss!!). But, yeah...other than that. Pretty uneventful day.

Hmm....since I don't have a bio test tomorrow, that means she will probably give us a quiz on what we were supposed to have read for tomorrow. She has told us that she is going to assign a chapter per day for the rest of the year because we are so behind. Oh well.

Did a six-miler today in track. Twas quite sweet. I was especially proud that in the end, I was leading the pack and had like enough energy to actually speed everyone up, although I don't think anyone else appreciated that. Distance running is where it's at. Although I am upset that I can't do the time trials Friday cause I am going to Pennsylvania to look at colleges and such. Oh well.

Other than that, yeah...life is pretty much the same. I'm still wondering whether random imagery in books was actually put there by the author or whether it is created by the reader's mind. And, wow. That was random.

Regina Spektor+Fall Out Boy+Five For Fighting+The Fray=amazing.

And now I'm just trying to kill time. Although I really don't have any time which I can kill, which is not good. I am going to end up killing time which I actually still needed alive. Lol. Talk about killing time.


I shan't say any more.
Other than that I am indecisive.


and crazy.


Goodnight.

tired (not enough time)

Ok, first, before I forget..I just found the coolest thing to do with google. I you have anything you want to define, like everything from short phrases to events to really complicated names that aren't in dictionaries, you can find an easy definition just by typing define:the word(s) you want to define. It's like really easy to use and is like perfect for defining biology and/or any other terms which you feel like defining.

But..yeaahh..I really have nothing to post here. I have finally finished the thesis from hell (or almost finished...still have that paper on how I wrote my paper to write). It was actually pretty entertaining because my like normal every-night bio homework was 1/4 of my thesis (900 words). Oh welll

Hmmm. Track starts tomorrow. I can't wait for that! I love track and everything that has to do with it.

Oh well. This post is quite short. Maybe more sometime later, but sleep for now.


Goodnight.

I don't know

So. This week has been very terribly amazingly uneventful. It started out warm, and got up to 70 yesterday. But, amazingly enough, it's gonna snow like 8 inches tomorrow. It is like a mix of perfect warmth then a perfect winter snowstorm in the same week! Amazing.

But other than that, everything has been pretty much status quo. I am trying to run every day in an attempt to get in shape for the outdoor season. If it weren't for my stupid knee (which only hurts when I am sitting down), I would be out there with my friends doing 400's...but I'm not sure if I can handle that. Especially because they're like crazy sprinters (since when is Nasko a good sprinterr???) who do like 64 second 400 repeats. I wouldn't be able to keep up. Especially since I am a distance runner.

But, yeah. I use the term "yeah" way too much and can't stop. wow. But, yeah (there I go again), I shall continue with my training till mondayy when the actual season startss...I am sooo pumped.


But, yeah. Lately...

I have decided that arguing is pointless. After an argument starts, we are more focused on beating the other person's argument rather than convincing them of our own. The most efficient argument is not one which criticizes the opponents views, but instead one which ignores the opponents views all together and focuses on strengthening your own point of view.

Ok, if you followed that, good for you.

One little scary thing which I found this week is the yellowpages mapping function. From here, fill out a form to map a place, click "Get map", and switch to the "birds eye" view. Those are some pretty high-quality pictures with which you can zoom in like incredibly.

Ok, this post has been all over the place. I don't know what else to write. So I'll end with a quote.

"We sometimes know what we don’t know, but we always don’t know what we know. "

Homeworktime

Peace


oh, ps, it is amazing how sad it is that I still have my Christmas tree set up. We have it outside our living room window this year, due to allergies, and have been way too lazy to take it down. Quite sad. Although it is cheery to get a hint of Christmas every once in a while.

esperando

Ok I am GOING TO post. No matter how tired I feel. (although this may be quite a pathetic post)

My thoughts right now
Brian Peppers and whether he is real or not. :/. Maybe it doesn't really matter?

the fact that I keep going to cnn.com whenever I get on the computer is beginning to annoy me

I am up very late (for my standards) right now

Although I have failed to install one of those patch thingys for my compy, it still has the right time

(^^I guess Y2K didn't really happen either)

I find it funny that the school bell (which we are supposed to have 5 minutes before and when the first class in the morning starts) went off an hour later today

I find it frustrating that our school doesn't have bells

I miss middle school

No, I miss eighth grade

I am still embarassed about the time when I accidentally shared the food of my infatuation in elementary school (in third grade). I was so nervous that she was sitting next to me that when she got up to get her jacket, I accidentally scooted over and started eating off of her plate (ACCIDENTALLY) without knowing it. When she came back, both she and I were surprised.

How can I still be embarrassed (let alone remember) about that?

My frustrating bio teacher gave us a quiz which I was not prepared for today. She ended up making it an open-book, open-note, talk-to-your-neighbor, ask-the-teacher quiz. I still think I only got an A-

I know I have a Spanish pop quiz tomorrow, but I am trying to block it from my memory, for it is supposed to be a pop quiz.

Speaking of blocking things out, I am reading a story in Spanish where a woman grew up a catholic and grew up with this saintly priest, but then learned that even the priest didn't believe in god or heaven. Once he told her that, she was convinced that there was no god. How could you live with that belief?

I really want to break a pencil in half right now, but I don't think that would be very productive.

I get confused sometimes

I think I'm crazy sometimes

I sometimes think that I have bent myself so much to please others that I have no personality. I am who people want me to be. And I focus on that way too much. That is not me...I've forgotten who the real me is.

I wrote that for part of my SAT essay section. I don't think that's what they're looking for.

I am tired now

This week has been crazy

The week has been crazy. Pretty much. From labs to tests to worrying about the SAT, I haven't gotten to bed before 11:00 at all this week, which is pretty bad for me.

*stops writing for like 3 days*

Ok...so...just came back from the Winter Athletics Varsity Awards ceremony. It was quite sweet, except they nearly forgot to call my name. There were about 20-25 kids there for indoor. I just kept on waiting, thinking they would come back to me at the end. Luckily, I got someone's attention, and they realized that I had been called yet. Oh well. Varsity letter=sweet. If I do 2 varsity sports next year (which I am), then I am going to get a special award thingy for getting 7 varsity letters. Cool, cool.

But, yeah. The last few days have been like the rest of the week, in that I've been going to be at about 11:30 every night. But, last night, I actually didn't have a terrible amount of homework, so I tried to go to bed early. But, unfortunately, I failed miserably 'cause I was so used to going to bed late. So, yeah...sitting in bed thinking...

Pretty much..I wondered why I could think that I was thinking about me thinking, or just people's existence overall. I can understand how a human body works, consisting of thousands of cells all working in unison, but I couldn't grasp the idea of the conscious. I mean, how do we know that we exist? We are really just many thousands of little creatures (cells), but are they what create the conscious? How can the existence of something so seamless and intangible as the mind be defined in terms of biology and neuroscience? (in a way, it's actually terrifying to think if we would exist if we did not have the sense of touching, tasting, smell, hearing, or seeing. We would be a prisoner of our own minds, ignorant of the real world.)

But yeah...moving on...If thousands of cells working together can create a creature intelligent enough to think and know of its own existence, then what about the thousands of humans on this world? Do we create some sort of larger being? In a way, today's society does create a living creature, from growing, to having ups and downs to getting sick and getting healthy again. A bit odd to think about.

Ok. Now that I have that out of my system.

I recently found a cartoon thingy (look below) which really struck me in some way.

(http://xkcd.com)

I'm not really sure why I like it so much. Just sort of heartwarming.


But, yeah, I should get off to some bio studying or something like that.

Peace.

Rainy Friday

SsoO.
Psychology it is.

I have been debating over what I am really interested in and what I just find interesting...and have finally decided to ignore my age-old attraction to the ocean and move on to psychology instead. AP psych will be such an awesome class. I will be very angry at my teacher if A) He doesn't recommend me for AP psych of B) He is my teacher for that class next year. Oh, well. Things could be worse.

Along those lines, I have been frustratingly looking for colleges. I am now beginning to feel the stress of looking for colleges, and I'm not liking it at all. Oh, well, I guess that this is what the next two years of my life are going to be like.

I now hate photosynthesis. Dannenberg (my teacher) is frustrating and makes us write so much for our labs. It is so frustrating, and I always have at least one night per term when I need to finish a formal lab and I always stay up until like 1-3 in the morning for those. And so, yeah, last night was the night I needed to finish my (very extended) lab (on photosynthesis). I can't think now. So I apologize if this post is a bunch of incoherent words.

Speaking of staying up late and not being able to think, the feeling that you get the day (or the morning) after, is absolutely amazing. It is almost like I don't really care about what other people think about me, and I am more relaxed and can like talk more. Very odd...this is why I like psychology.

But, yes...running out of things to talk about...

Ok, philosophy time...I was like actually thinking about like the whole idea of winning the lottery and everything the other day. But, seriously, the lottery is absolutely a terrible thing to have. Us rich folk (and I'm generalizing, but most people in the United States are at least average to above average in wealth) are always aiming to be richer. What the lottery is really doing is making the rich richer and not supporting anything but increasing wealth in an already wealthy society. It is sad to say, but if we really want to make the rest of the world a better (and wealthier) place, we will have to become poorer ourselves. And, I don't mean like losing a percent of you income to donations. I mean living and working entirely for the purpose of providing for others. Only in this way will we be able to fix our global problems. Hmm...that actually sounds a lot like communism...

Done with philosophy time. Ok, something really off topic....the other day I found a video linked from a news article involving the worst sports accidents of all time. One video is still playing back in my head, of Clint Malarchuk (a hockey goalie) accidentally getting a skate to his neck by the opposing team. Within 2 seconds, there is a 3 foot pool of blood in front of him. It just makes my stomach churn to think of what was going through his mind right then. Ok, so this is REALLY graphic, so unless you're really comfortable with blood or really want to see this, don't click here to watch the video. You might just want to listen to the commentators first. Just thought I'd share that.

Ok, so time to work on crazy Friday night homework, and looking forward to tomorrow night for something exciting. Hopefully if I have the guts. Hehe, I love making people wonder what I'm talking about.


Peace

random

Ok, so I know it's 10:00 on a Tuesday morning and I should be sleeping, but that's beside the point.

Sooo...nothing really new going on. Vacation is absolutely wonderful, and I am so happy that it's here. Now, the next step is the SUMMER, but I've got a ways to go before I get there. I've got finals, AP's, the SAT's, and all that jazz. In a way, the end of the year is the hardest time.

But, in other news, I am so amazingly happy that I got my junior thesis finally done. I managed to pick the most boring topic that was possible, the start of the United States' Banking System. There were so many other options, which would have actually made my junior thesis ENJOYABLE, but unfortunately, I didn't realize how boring the banking system actually was.

Hmmm...I just clicked on something and I'm not totally sure what it just did...something about freeing up disk space. Hmm.. : /

On Saturday, I went skiing at the most amazing place evar...Mt Sunapee. It wasn't too terribly huge (actually small compared to Stowe), but it was like amazing. It's quite entertaining cause everyone I know who knows how to ski or snowboard is going skiing or snowboarding over vacation. But, hannyways.. I'm going to Killington later this week, which will be sweet.

I've had waay too much time on my hands lately, and I've started to make a picture website thingy. Check it out. But, yeah, I really need to do something more productive...

But, yeah, I should be getting back to my bio lab, which I have yet to start. (btw, my previous bio labs were 4500+ words, whereas the thesis was 3300, and I usually do the bio labs in one night...crazy, crazy)

Peace

a lot of links

Ok, so I really have other things to do right now, but whatevs

I just found a very cool google earth-like website on "Flickr" in which you can search locations and click on photos to see like actual pictures of that location. This really cool map can be found here. Pretty sweet.

Then, this week, Fall Out Boy came out with their (in my opinion) best album yet. (a review of it can be found here. It mixes up the good parts of their old albums, a kind of heavy light rock with a slight mix of emo at times. Overall, the masterful lyrics add meaning to each of the songs...making each one tell a story and create a mood. You can listen to streaming music for their new cd here. Also, I have recently discovered an amazing song..."Love is all I Need" by Kristian Leontiou. It has an amazing piano background...and any song with an amazing piano background is a good song.

Finally (last link, I promise), I found pretty funny title to an article on cnn.com. Quite interesting. People should proofread their article before they submit it to be published...

Recently, I have been wondering about racism and all the other bad "ism's" which are out there. The real root of racism, like it or not, is the idea that people's physical characteristics and culture are different from one another. So, basically, I wonder whether there was racism in ancient times...because everyone was probably the same, if not at least more similar to each other than in today's world. Nobody back then had an efficient way to transport themselves from place to place, therefore minimizing the mix in culture and/or skin color. Once mass migration and the spreading of different religions began to become widespread, diversity in every country grew to be very large. Believe it or not, our expanding world was one of the key factors in supporting racism.

Ok, that's enough philosophical(ish) thinking for today. SO...

recently, I got my hair cut!!! I can finally wake up without having to get a shower to look nice. (Maybe) I shall grow it out again till the summer or beyond. We shall see.

Other than that, nothing much...thesis is making my life like torture. I overreact sometimes.

I went on the ski trip to Stowe last weekend, which was sweet. Many people go on that trip to get high 24/7, and I think I saw some of that, cause 2 kids got sent home for doing pot. And then the other entertaining thing were the three kids who mysteriously disappeared into the woods, and when I asked them later where they had gone, they all laughed and didn't tell me. But, other than that, I love to do high-risk skiing. On one run, I was going down so fast that I had a hard time keeping myself on the ground on one of the steep parts. It was like skydiving with skis. It was sugary sweet.

ohhh...this week. Funny things happened...but, hey! The most effective way to get into somebody's mind about something that you disagree about is by not doing anything. The more you can make them question their actions, the more likely they will start to understand your side of the argument. Then, once they begin questioning their part of the argument, you argue your point and catch them off-guard. If you got that last part, good for you! Sometimes I even have a hard time understanding myself.

So, not much else. It is now time for me to work on my Junior Thesis, my homework, then looking forward to going skating on the Charles River tomorrow!


Peace

PS
Why are we obsessing so much over Anna Nicole Smith's death? A few days ago, a man I knew who was much stronger and had much more personality than the greatest movie stars passed away. Why should the whole world be mourning the death of an actress when the only way my friend could get a suit for his open-casket wake was from a donation by my parents?

This world confuses me sometimes. People view things out of proportion.

speed demon

So, recently.

Had a pretty amazing race at reggie the other day. A pr of 5:17, and it felt pretty fast even though I got lapped right at the finish line. It is quite entertaining because I can tell down to the second how fast my time will be based off of when Seb laps me.

So, I went to the Boston Indoor Games. It was amazing to see how fast professionals go, compared to high school runners. In the 5K indoor womens competition, a Nigerian woman broke the world record in front of my eyes, and got a sub-5 minute mile pace for 3.1 miles for a total of 14:28. It was amazing.

The new iphone is stupid. I won't get into the details, but basically it may be a breakthrough in technology, but technology developed in Asia (not to stereotype here) five years ago still surpasses anything proposed for the near future by Apple. Phones have been developed with everything from broadband internet to a music player to a wireless credit card to a GPS system all with amazing speed and a low price. Apple should master their niche, the music playing industry.

Going skiing at Stowe this weekend. Downhill skiing conquers all. It looks like they have a few glades open, which will be absolutely sweet, as I have been craving glades for a good year and a half, because of the lack of snow last year. I can't wait.

My History teacher is so frustrating. He first gives me a B- on this stupid Junior Thesis outline, which I worked ever so hard on. And, yeah, that is 10% of my second term grade. Also, he graded my stupid essay a 78 even though I answered thoroughly every question he posed. So, I went in at 7:15 in the morning to have a 5-minute conversation with him. He's a phych teacher. He knows I'm angry. So, basically I gave Him a correct answer which He didn't like. Note to self: next time, read the teacher's mind.

Other than that...the exact same thing. Track is awesome. I shall get 508 tomorrow. And beat the other guy. Sweet.

Seeing as I haven't updated in quite a long time, it will most likely be very long until I get around to writing something here.

Till next time
Peace.

ps
for all you dog-lovers out there

In life, we learn. In school, we learn how to learn.

I have just come back from an amazing ski trip to Stowe. As I said, it was pretty much amazing, other than the lack of snow. The picture at left was taken over the summer at Tremblant, and I forgot that I had taken a few pictures which I had planned to put together later as a kind of panoramic picture, so here is my attempt at doing that.


Ok, so I have been meaning to update for a while now, but that's besides the point.

Let's see, in the recent weeks, I have been doing so much. Last week, I went skiing at Stowe (as mentioned above), and that was amazing. There were only twenty or so trails open, but it was still some pretty good skiing. I managed to somehow injure the top of my foot by going off too many jumps, and now whenever I run, I am half limping, half running. I managed to limp my way up and down a ladder of 2-4-6-8, 8-6-4-2 the other day, but my foot felt like it was about to fall off. I shall see how my track workout goes tomorrow.

Other than that, I have been limping through this school week. So stressful, but so amazing. It is kind of a love-hate relationship.

So, I have recently decided to start studying for the SAT's and took a 3-hour practice test today. It was so long, and so frustrating, but I got it done. It was quite entertaining because the essay question was something about people revealing too much information about themselves through the internet.

Other than that...let's see...recently, the iphone came out, which is absolutely sweet. A while ago, I previewed what I thought would be the next ipod, and I was pretty close to getting it right. So, it is a pretty amazing little device which can do pretty much anything a computer can do. Not only a touch-wide screen, but a "multi-touch" screen, which is very high-tech. (photo courtesy of apple.com)

The only thing I can object to is the memory size (4 gb or 8gb), the battery life (6 hours), and the price ($500 or $600). It is an amazing step forward for Apple, and I can't wait to see what they can do to better it.

Other than that, pretty much nothing has happened. Yesterday, I heard some terrible news at school that a kid had been stabbed to death at the high school pretty much next to mine. The teenage murderer (of course, that could be debated), had boasted about his weapon's collection to everyone at the school, yet no one did anything about it. No one took him seriously because he had asperger's syndrome, yet he was just as capable of following through with his threats as any other high-schooler would be. Unfortunately, it ended with one innocent child dead.

Better get some sleep.

Sleep Deprived, but Focused

So, last night I managed to stay up untill 2 or so in the morning finishing my stupid bio lab, then realized I still had the rest of my homework to do. I just basically didn't do any more of it, and went to bed wicked late. So, I thought that the lack of sleep would kill me during the day, but it actually made me more focused. I participated more in a lot of my classes because I was really relaxed and not really worrying about how other people view me. I should stay up late more often.

So, the late night was a result of both me not working on my stuff over vacation, but rather more me staying at the Reggie Lewis Center in Boston to see the rest of my track meet. I managed to eek out a pr of 5:18.5. We absolutely bulldozed our competition, beating them 70-11. It was quite entertaining, and I've decided that I have become addicted to cheering. Maybe I could be a coach. Except for my absolute lack of experience and skill. Maybe when I get older.


I saw a video the other day of the record-breaking 3:43 mile run by Hicham El Guerrouj. It is quite an amazing film, and can be found off of youtube here.

Nothing much else to say. It is time for me to get some sleep for a change.

peace.